Tuesday, 10 February 2015

Here today, gone tomorrow.

Hi, everyone.

I just spent the last 2 hours reading a book that was recommended to me nearly 2 years ago: "How to win friends and influence people" by Dale Carnegie, whilst listening to background piano music (of course), Yiruma to be exact.
I have been meaning to read this book for a long time now, but have always been "too busy" but tonight, I guess I just needed a break from everything and to read something positive and motivational. So far, I wouldn't say that the book has put me in a better or more positive mood, but it definitely has been inspiring.

11th February is the day that my "nephew" had passed away, 7 years ago today.
I seriously thought that it would get easier to deal with as time goes on, but it doesn't. I still find tears strolling down my cheeks as I write this post and yet I have no words to explain why. Honestly, I wasn't even all that close to my relative since I would only see him once every few years. Maybe it's because I had memories of our early childhood together, so it was the first death that truly affected me, I don't know... I was 16 at the time when I had first heard the news and all I can remember is holding in the tears in front of my parents before bursting when I had went upstairs into my room.

It's just sad... to know that someone so young (14 at the time) had been taken away so early; how much could he have achieved and done with his life given the chance?
We have the opportunity every day to "live"... and yet isn't it ironic that we don't?

This is not a sympathy post, and I don't wish for anybody to feel sorry for me. Heck, anybody who knows me well will know how much I hate to show the "weak" side of me. I am the strong and positive Lily that everybody visions. This post is merely to show appreciation to the happy and selfless child who once lived. Zhi Ho, thank you for your guidance these past 7 years. Call me silly and naive, but I do believe in guardian angels. So, I thank you for being my guardian angel.
Gone, but never forgotten. ♡

I say this every day but- life is too short. There is not enough time to hate, to fight and to be at war with eachother, with ourselves all the time. Make the most out of every day, do what you enjoy, make memories and treasure the people you love.
We are here today, but nobody can guarantee we will still be here tomorrow. Horrible thought but true nonetheless. Don't leave things too late to do, to say. Do/ say them all now, whilst you still can.

I apologise for the depressing post tonight, and hope that you guys are enjoying your week so far.

(Photo taken from Tumblr).
I saved this image a while ago, to remind me that there is no better time to do anything... than "now".

Keep smiling, keep inspiring.
Love L x.


  1. So sorry for your loss. This post was an excellent reminder to show my loved ones how much they mean to me, so thank you for that!


    1. Hi Renee, thanks for taking the time to read through my post and for your kind comment.
      Lily x

  2. Such a great post that resonates with me! So sorry for your loss! It's really hard having to deal with losing family at a vulnerable age - such as your teenage years. I , too lost my cousin in feb. The 2nd to be exact. He was 16, murdered over his coat. They never stole the coat or any money. 4.0 grade point average and he died in the snow trying to call his mother one last time. He was an artist and I can't even listen to his music cause it hurts my heart that person well on his way to doing good things in life can't anymore. Over a jacket. I say all of this to say that life is indeed too short and we never know when we're going to go. So I definitely agree that we should take life by the horns and do everything and anything we can under the son. If not do it for ourselves then do it for the people that no longer can! Thank you for this.


    1. Hi Jackie, thank you for your comment. I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your cousin and the horrible experience he had to go through. It's so sad that people are willing to kill over such petty things like a jacket... surely you would think that a human life is more valuable. I guess that death is just one of them things we have to deal with, sad but true. My thoughts go out to you and all your family, stay strong always! And yes, keep living every day like it is our last.
      Lily x